Another new year comes.
Suppose, peoples will expecting the new year, and expecting to get a better life for the new year...
I'm sure too..
But things go contrary to my wishes..
Majority of my mind during this "new year" is greatly sink into affairs that which I have been grieved and undergone previously. The military situation lead me to the condition of depressed again.
I thought I am strong enough to confront with every aspects which challenging me, but, sometimes, we do have to admit that the enemy of ourselves is the another intrinsic character who controlling us.
Yet,
I am defeated by myself...
When I am typing the above sentence, this sentence sent a chill down my spine.
Majority peoples of the world refuse to acknowledge their characteristic carry out from them, refuse to accept theirselves, how there are.
For example: selfish is no good in a generally acknowledged fact. If someone blaming you that you are selfish, what kinds of response will you show?
I am really admire for those people will give out the respone of "yes, I am."
Because they are accepting themselves how there are.
Don't we know that selfish also benefit us under some situation.
That is just a simple example for clarify my views.
The situation which I am underlying now is more complex and it do need sometimes to digest.
I am now lying in a low magnetic field,
I know what happen with me, but I am unable to settle off effectively.
It really cause physical or mental suffering.
Im impatience, but I have to drill myself become more patient in facing the mentally problems.
Im sturborn, but I have to drill myself become diversify.
What can I do right now, is try to get myself balance against those mentally problems that arise.
Hopefully, the next post of my blog will be written of some issues that showing how can I get out from those mentally problems....
